From A to Z…and everything in between

So, I like to promote independence my children.  This requires heart-breaking moments at times.  Let me explain.  Zach is going through a bit of separation anxiety.  He thinks that everyone who is not Mommy is evil.  He’s 18 months.  And I think he’s teething once again.  He even doesn’t want to go near Daddy unless Mommy is 5 feet away from him.  And if anyone approaches, he clings to me like…well, like a cling-on.  LOL

The heart-breaking part is that I must leave him every once in a while.  I have to go to work on Wednesdays and I have to go work out.  Well, I don’t have to if I want my ginormous butt to continue to grow.  When I dropped him off last week by himself when AJ was at pre-school, he cried the whole time.  I was told that he got worse after each parent picked up their child and someone else left.  WHOOPS.  Then I thought that maybe if AJ was by his side, it would be different.  And less traumatic for him.  Nope.  Cried the whole time again.  So, my heart-breaking dilemma is – do I continue and have him get used to it (and how long will that take?) or do we work around it and I I make Daddy suffer the crying, rather than some paid help who doesn’t really give a crap and thinks my son is a nuisance?

For right now, I’m going to continue going where Zach and AJ will go together.  This time I’m going to try to bring his giraffe.  It’s his “lovely”, so to speak.  Hopefully, that will help.  We’ll see.

Ok, so it’s been a whole month since I posted anything in my blog.  Do I have a reason?  No, they’re just excuses.  Because – really, how long does an entry in a blog take?  Not very long at all.

Ok – so – an update on my life.  Still on Lexapro.  Finding new friends (well, old friends, newly re-discovered) on Facebook, AJ has started Pre-school, Zach is being a “mommy’s boy” these days and my husband is just in a bad mood all the time.  My husband is really tuned into the market and the fact that we’ve lost a great deal of money in the last two months is getting to him.

AJ’s 4th birthday is quickly approaching.  I’m happy for him, but yet undecided on how I truly feel about it.  I want him to be my baby forever.  BUT it drives me insane when he acts like a baby.  I mean, he’s 4 years old – grow up!  LOL  I like to foster independence as much as I can.  I encourage dressing himself, putting on his own shoes, wiping his own butt (LOL), playing by himself, and lastly behaving himself.  Yes, that’s fostering independence.  In my opinion if he behaves himself, the less I need to watch over him and the more he deserves my trust and the more confident he feels.  It works most of the time.  Except when Zach is acting up.  You see, AJ can not seem to just let Zach be.  It’s always picking.  Always poking.  Always prodding.  GAH!!

And Zach is a huge imitator right now.  I never understood when my mother said for me to behave because my sisters are watching me.  What she should have said is that my sisters would imitate everything I do.  THAT I understand.  If AJ screams, Zach does.  If AJ puts his shoes on, Zach tries.  It’s great.  It’s the “old dog” teaching the “new dog” behavior.  However, Zach doesn’t realize he’s 2 1/2 years younger and has some physical/mental limitations.  But he’s probably about 6 months ahead of AJ at his age.  So, he’s a smartie.

And me – I’m making a dent in my scrapbook pages.  Scrapping and scanning.  I’ve got 40 scanned so far.  And uploaded into Flickr and on See my Scrap (link on right).  It feels good to make progress.  Some of the progress was made when Hurricane Ike dumped tons of water on our area for 4 days straight!  The rivers were flooding and lots of people have lots of damage.  Since it was raining, I was stuck inside with kids who wanted to go outside.  So, we went downstairs a lot to scream and run around.  Well, they did.  I scanned and scrapped!  It was nice, actually.  I suspect November and December will bring much the same.

Alright – on to planning AJ’s birthday party, scanning more pages, scrapping more pages, and being a mom.  Ta ta for now.