I really don’t know what the problem is. However, I have a few “reasons” why I feel this way.

First, we switch years for visiting for Christmas. One year, we go to my family for Christmas and then New Year’s at the in-laws. The next year, it’s the opposite. This year was supposed to be Christmas at the in-laws. But it has officially been cancelled because of Mother Nature. She is a cruel beast that is getting in between a peaceful, relaxing Christmas get-away and my family. It sucks. I was really looking forward to it.

Secondly, I’m now not looking forward to going to celebrate Christmas where we are now (thanks to the cancellation above). I am a little tired of a certain person who will be there and don’t really feeling like putting on my “happy face”. But I love Christmas and I will go celebrate. I know my mom loves it, too. She will spoil my kids rotten and we will have tons to bring home.

Thirdly, I have just been worn down. Three weeks of preparation to put into Christmas. It’s a lot of work. I’m exhausted.

Fourthly, my husband blurted out my Christmas gift. I am excited to find out what it is. It’s the Cricut. For scrapbooking. Secretly, I’ve been wanting one since they came out. They came out with a more portable, affordable die-cut machine named Slice. I talked myself into wanting that one instead. But I really do want the Cricut. LOL But I love surprises. I love Christmas gifts. I love to see what other people would like to get me. While I do spit out a list every year, I secretly hope that someone will buy off the list. Buy something that they think I would like. And hopefully, I would.

Fifthly, (is that a word??) I just sort of glanced over a lot of Christmas traditions this year. I didn’t make cookies. I’m not really listening to a lot of Christmas music. Plus I had a lot of added “chores”. AJ has pre-school and he had a party the parents had to plan and attend. I wanted to get family pictures done for the Christmas card and that didn’t happen.

So, I just needed to write that down. I’m hoping that by purging all these negative thoughts, postive ones can flow in and help get me through these next couple days with the holiday spirit I so overwhelmingly desire.